neglection.
It seems like an age and a half since I actually wrote a properly good length blog. It’s 00:51 right now, let’s hope it doesn’t take an immense amount of time; I could probably do with some sleep.
I’m just not feeling up to the whole concept of ‘bed’ right this moment.
Do you ever get that total feeling of neglection?
(Example A: Me and this wordpress blog)
Sometimes I feel like.
Well, just nothing.
I feel like nothing.
Empty.
It’s a strange feeling; neglection. It’s like you’ve been forgotten; you were clear as crystals and suddenly you’re invisible? What’s happened there then? What happened to make the invisibility takeover? Something you’ve said? Something you’ve done?
Whenever I feel neglected, it’s usually my own fault. I’ve brought something upon myself by having the terrible case of foot-in-mouth disease. Really, it’s terrible. I regret things as soon as I’ve said them.
-Like the other day, for example. One of the boys in the year above me put his facebook status to something like “And I hope I can make you proud, when you look down on me” – I instantly thought either his mum/dad was annoying him, or it was a song. So I ‘wittily’ commented saying I couldn’t look down on him because I was too short. Only when I read the comments that streamed after mine did I realise someone must have died. Woops.
And so, being the loving, gentle soul that I aim to be, I left him a message saying I was sorry for my previous comment, I had no idea what had happened. If he wanted someone to talk to I was there for him.
And then he added me on messenger; I thought i’d be nice and make sure he was okay.
What do I get for it? “I only added you so I could let you know I deleted your comment off my profile because you turned my serious into a mick-take” (He said something ruder but I won’t write that here..) I responded saying “sorry, I had no idea” and then he just told me he “didn’t need my ‘sympathy’” – Whatever. Block. I love the blocking system on msn.
I can stop talking to people that start to really annoy me.
And when I say really annoy me, I mean really, REALLY annoy me.
But that’s enough of a rant for now.
It’s now 01:11. I should go to bed/sleep.
Sweet dreams & God bless,
Rachel xxx
